Sunday, November 28, 2010

Life is YOU



May you never steal, lie, or cheat,
but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows,
and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life,
and if you must cheat, then please cheat death
because I couldn't live a day without you.

Source: Leap Year



Sunday, November 21, 2010

Letters to Juliet





"'What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening
as words come. But put them together
side-by-side and they have the power
to haunt you for therest of your life:
‘What if?'..."

"I don't know how your story ended.
But I know that if what you felt
then was love - true love - then
it's never too late. If it was true
then why wouldn't it be true
now? You need only the courage to
follow your heart..."

"I don't know what a love like that
feels like... a love to leave loved
ones for, a love to cross oceans
for... but I'd like to believe if I
ever felt it. I'd have the courage
to seize it. I hope you had the
courage to seize it, Claire. And if
you didn't, I hope one day that you
will."


By: Jose Rivera


Friday, November 19, 2010

Hati saya yang merasa Cinta





Benar saya cintai kamu
Tapi cinta bukan Tuhanku...

Benar saya cintai kamu
Tapi cinta bukan bermakna perlu memilikimu..

Benar saya cintai kamu
Tapi cinta sahaja tidak mampu menyempurnakanmu..

Benar saya cintai kamu
Bahagia kamu adalah kembangan bunga hatiku..

Carilah bahagia dan kegembiraanmu
Kerana saya cintai kamu..

Oleh: Ida@Ogy

Monday, November 15, 2010

My Heart, My Soul




Dear Not-So-Little-Baby
I miss you much already
The world is so glowy and sunny
When you are near me

My dear Lovely,

You soon to be a big brother
Never ever think Ammah gonna love you lesser
I would still love you tender
In my hug you'll find the warm shelter

Oh my lil' hero
You are not so little anymore
Am gonna be your shining armor
Find me in you heart when you feel afraid to soar

Dear my heart
life is hard and you must be smart
The greatest thing, you'll ever learn,
is just to love, and be loved in return.


I LOVE YOU!

By: Ammah

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I guess I didn't



Kata Anang - Benar ku mencintaimu, tapi tak begini

How would I go on?
I feel hurt. I had let go...

I thot I did. But I guess I didn't.
Dear God, help me for what I feel.


After years had gone by, I thot I would be able to face it...
After years of sorrow, I thot I'm healed...

After years of silence I thot it's all gone...
After years of distance I thot I have made it thru....
But I guess I didnt.

If I am happy when I am around him, why am I crying?

If he could kill the sadness, why am I hurt?
If he is the honey sugar, why would I still feel the bitterness?
I guess he is still the honeybee who stung my heart with poison...
And left the scar forever.

Dear God, I beg, show me some light so I would be happy again.

Please God, don't let him tear me apart...
Love me God, for only Your love can make me strong
I need You God and ONLY You.

Dengarlah matahariku,
suara tangisanku, ku bersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku....


Monday, April 12, 2010

How monkey is a donkey?


What do you think of me? I was so dumb and ignorant. How could I do that to him? I keep on blaming myself for acting foolishly. He was probably just wanna have a sweet chat. He stroke the conversation just to make things are a lot more comfortable between us. But I was dorky like a donkey...huhuhu. Lesson learned....do not chase people away from you, you might end up crying for them to stay...hahaha :) well if you don't, I'd do...hehehe.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

It's all about LOVE...have you ever?



Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say and you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one you've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world 'Cuz baby I can't sleep


This is the song that I used to listen to when I was a lot younger :) and today I unintentionally watched the video from Utube. What a msg it brings when I attentively listen to its wordings.

I have forgotten how to love, and what love is, since my heart and soul are officially unbound from one tactless person. What had happened really impacted me wickedly.

Yet, today I somehow feel, I am in LOVE again. Well, not to say LOVE (to be exact). The flirtatious soul in me has awaken after years of silence. Hmmm...been thinking about this help-to-leap living creature. He helped to get things a lot easier for me. His presence made the air invigorating. His funny anecdotes were hilarious. He knows how to sing "Somewhere over the rainbow...".

BUT..."have you ever?" says it all. The ailment to get him know how I feel and to know how he feels is the pain that I'm bearing. Maybe I have to take it slow...very slow.

Dear McDreamy of my dream... the gate is open wide...all you got to do is ride...soar high in the universe of my heart...you'll find me there, in the bright light.
Thank you for making my life more worth living :)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

YOU is what I called LIFE



Friends..

Sometimes, they do hurt.
Most of the time, they are like angels.

I sometimes feel being left out, feel trifled, unequally treated..
I most of the time, feel coloured, feel inspired when surrounded by the angels..

I sometimes need space for myself
I most of the time need them more than those empty spaces

I do love you my friends...no matter what you say...

By:Ida@Ogy

Sunday, July 26, 2009

From the Wizard of Oz...


I miss you so very badly "not so lil' baby"...
Ammah always sang this song for you when u wanted to sleep
Be good, be brave my lil' dearie
I Love you, forever will be


Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of Once,
once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds
Are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
that's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow
bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow why then oh why can't I
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow
why oh why can't I

Sunday, May 24, 2009

As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you


Thinking
Can't stop thinking
Think of you
This - That
That Life
That day
That dream was mine
A utopian dream
Dazed - Confused
Without true reality, I there sat
Wondering
The end of my world had only just begun
With yours beginning
Words of wisdom come to my ears
Telling me what I know in my heart
But never wanted to hear
Love hurts
That's what they all say
But I will love again when all this pain and sorrow goes away
So I sit and think of all the things this situation has cost
And I realize that nothing very important has been lost ....
I'm alive again
(Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun )

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Matahariku - My Sunshine




Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku - Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu - Kini kau pergi dari hidupku - Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau - Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati - Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi - Tak ada lagi cahaya suci - Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi - Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku - Ku bersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku - Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku - Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu



Monday, April 20, 2009

Melawan Kesepian




Apapun yang terjadi - Berjalanlah tanpa henti - Air mata tertahan - Waktu untuk dijatuhkan - Nanti kita kan tahu - Betapa bijaknya hidup - Sepahit apapun ini - Pelajaran yang berarti - Semoga kepergianmu - Tak akan merubah apapun - Semoga mampu kulawan Kesepianku - Apapun yang terjadi - Berjalanlah tanpa henti...

Monday, April 13, 2009

Ada apa dengan dia






Ada apa dengan dia?
It has been days I wanted to tell about this lady.
Ada apa dengan dia?? Ada sesuatu padanya. Sesuatu yang gembira.

I'm happy to know... she is happy to have it...
Hope Allah make everything easier for her because it isn't easy.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Sirah Junjungan..Tahajud Cinta


Suatu tajuk yang membawa makna yang sangat besar. Kalo nak dikisahkan tentang sirah nabawiyyah, rasanya, inilah sirah yang paling indah pernah kubaca. Sirah ini membawa aku bersama-sama menjiwai dan merasai kehidupan Rasulullah ya Habiballah dr kecil sehingga wafatnya baginda.

Bukan baru kudengari kisah Rasulullah, malah dari zaman kecil sehingga kini. Kehendak Allah dan petunjuk Allah itu tak siapa yang berhak menghalangnya. Masa kecil ku kenali Muhammad kerana dia seorang yang bernama Muhammad, legenda umat Islam. Kisahnya turut disenaraikan dalam silibus pendidikan agama di sekolah, dan kisahnya juga didengarkan dan dibacakan oleh mak di rumah.

Tapi bila dewasa, kukenali Rasulullah kerana dia kekasih Allah. Dialah yang membawa anjakan paradigma pada kehidupan manusia sejagat. Dialah....Indahnya akhlak membuatkan aku jatuh cinta tanpa boleh dihalang2 lagi. Kisahnya sentiasa dibawa dalam setiap kelas yang aku hadiri. Sabda dan sunnahnya sentiasa meniti dibibir para guru2 ku. Rasulullah begitu....Rasulullah begini....Rasulullah tidak melakukan itu....Rasulullah membuatnya begini...Rasulullah kata begitu..Rasulullah kata begini. Gegendang telinga ku hanya didengarkan dgn keindahan peribadi Rasulullah. Lalu jiwa meresapi keindahannya....aku rindu.

Ketika jiwa sarat dengan cinta dan rindu..Erma Fatima memulakan langkah berani mementaskan kisah Muhammad Al-Amin yang aku cintai. Buat pertama kali, kujejaki kaki di Istana Budaya, menonton hasil arahannya.




Dari permulaan pementasan hingga ke penghujungnya, airmataku mengalir tanpa henti. Pementasan bermula dengan kisah Abrahah ingin menawan Mekah dan diakhiri ketika wafatnya Baginda. Rinduku makin menebal. Semakin hangat pementasannya, semakin kuraskaan Rasulullah dekat padaku. Satu persatu pesanan baginda yang pernah singgah ke telingaku, bermain-main dibenak.

Alangkah beruntung para sahabat kerana pernah merasai kehidupan bersamamu. Alangkah beruntung Fatimah kerana berayahkan dirimu. Alangkah beruntungnya Khadijah kerana dicintaimu dan beruntungnya aku kerana dilahirkan sebagai umatmu...Alhamdulillah.

Aku merasakan bahawa perlunya umat Islam di Malaysia ini yang tidak pernah merasakan cinta dan rindu pada Rasulullah dalam diri, agar menonton pementasan ini. Inilah salah satu wadah untuk kalian lebih mengenali pemimpin agung pilihan Allah. Keindahannya, keperitan yang ditanggungnya, seksaan dan hinaan yang dilemparkan padanya utk kita menikmati Islam, tak terbayar oleh kita...

Credit yang tertinggi kuhadiahkan buat erma fatima kerana keberanian, kesungguhan dalam kepayahan utk mementaskan kisah Rasul agung yang sentiasa aku banggakan. Jazakillah...

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Possibility


I once loved this song by Intoxicated. It was back then, when I was in school. Not knowing what to do. All I knew was, I wanna sing. I wanna sing like Whitney, like Vanessa Williams, like Mariah Carey. I sang and sang and practised and tried to sing at the best I could. It could only be seen years back. I once, wanted to become a professional singer. Just like them....

Who I was and who I am now doesn't have that much of differences. Still have the same interests. However, who I wanted to be back then and who I have become now, is pretty much different. I learnt that what you are interested in does not kill you. What kills you is, uncontrollable passion of interest. I love who I am now and who is was. Never want to be who I wanted to become..not now...today..and forever.

I thank Allah for the beautiful journey of life I had and gonna have. It's too beautiful.

Now I present....the lyrics of


POSSIBILITY

Everytime I look at you
I wish you looked my way
And flash me that dazzling smile that
really makes my day
But of course it's just a dream
a dream that won't come true
and for unrequited love I wrote this song for you
I always think of how it'd be
if we were together
You and me holding hands
(It's a dream)
I can picture it right now
You and me,
It's a dream,
It's a possibility...
When I look out of my window
I hope you look up at me
If only you could read my heart
My love so true you'd see
How empty my life would be
If I don't have you
And for unrequited love I wrote this song for you...
..it's a dream... it's a Possibility...


Those who ever loves Intoxicated, loves Possibility

Monday, March 2, 2009

Beautiful...


Thursday
After nearly a month....
After such a long wait. It wasn't so long for some people, but it was long enough for a person like me, to feel near again. For some reason, it taught me how precious a person could be, in this beautiful life of mine. So precious...every inch of 'it' resembling the beauty of a friendship, companionship and relationship. It worth the MYR spent for making everything possible.



Friday
Sad news...the phone at the other side refused to help the communication further. More money have to spend, to make every second a momento. Msges were delivered but not replied...but being substituted with calls. The mode was even more interactive and efficient. I have company while driving back home...i have company when i was at home...I like...

Saturday
Long conversation again...life is so beautiful if we could share the moments. It was such a blessings to be given a chance to share especially with the important and loved ones. I fail to express the feeling inside even further. It's too personal to be reached through my words...

Nite
We went out to Allson Klana to have dinner. This is to celebrate mom's 57th birthday. Didn't have much chance to snap more pictures since we were busy video taping dazril's acts.
The food was nice, buffet with grilled seafood and poultry...yummmmm..
Happy Birthday Mak

Monday, February 9, 2009

Heart


Kata Imam Al-Ghazali:
"Carilah hatimu pada tiga tempat. carilah hatimu sewaktu bangun membaca Al-Quran. Jika kau tidak temui, cari hatimu ketika mengerjakan solat. Jika tak kau temui, carilah hatimu ketika duduk tafakur mengingati mati. Jika kau tidak temui juga, maka berdoalah kepada Allah pinta hati yang baru kerana hakikatnya pada ketika itu kau tidak mempunyai hati"


MEMBACA AL-QURAN

Firman Allah:
"Diturunkan kepadamu Al-Quran sebagai petunjuk dan rahmat serta penawar..."
Al-Isra' 17:82


MENDIRIKAN SOLAT

"Jika kamu ingin Allah bercakap denganmu, bacalah Al-Quran kerana Al-Quran ialah ayat-ayat Allah yang ditujukan kepadamu. Tetapi jika kamu pula ingin bercakap dengan Allah, maka dirikanlah solat kerana solat hakikatnya ialah doa, pengaduan, pujian dan rintihan seorang hamba kepada Allah"


MENGINGATI MATI

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w:
"Orang yang paling cerdik iaitu mereka yang banyak mengingati mati."

Riwayat al-Baihaqi


Friday, January 30, 2009

What I Believe


I have two days to relax...free my mind. I need to think, think hard on what i should do in my life...

I once heard ppl said, "orang yang merancang adalah orang yg kecewa kerana Allah telah membuat perancangan utk kita", but i also heard one said "gagal utk merancang adalah merancang utk gagal". But at the back of my mind, i think i understand what they are trying to tell me.

I believe that we need to sketch out what we want to achieve and work for it, but let Allah decides what is the outcome. Whatever the results may, that's the best for us. Always believe that Allah always has something better instore for us when the right time has come.



Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Unreachable



Yesterday was the last day of communication. Last msg was at 11:39AM saying goodbye. The communication was not like before.

Before:

  • was there almost all the time

  • always offer a shoulder to cry on

  • teasing around

  • weekend visit

Present:


  • communicate during weekend

  • not much of time spend to talk

  • bz with things to do list

  • no more offering a shoulder due to tight schedule

Since all these obstacles are presents, so i'm lucky to be gifted with such a life, like no other. With patience and prayers, with the love from Allah, things will definitely be better



Monday, January 26, 2009

Nothing much

It's CNY break and we do not have any plans. We were suppose to go to Malacca on last Saturday since mak feels so bored staying at home. Unfortunately 'twas cancelled since adik was not in the pink of health. She doesn't feel like going out at all.

Till this morning, it has been 2 solid days that i haven't made a presence to the outside world. Staying inside, not even pampering my garden and my pond. This morning, i have found my courage to get some fresh flowers from the market for the empty vase . I know that nobody will get it filled with the fresh smell of chrysanthemum.

Dazril came back at 9.30PM last nite. After the playing, tossing and turning, he finally cried. That's a good sign to show that he is tired and need some sleep. I'm tired too darling.

I remembered my visit to the islamic economy development exhibition last thursday. Managed to get a set of stories of the prophets for Dazril. Such books are rarely found in the market anymore. Dazril is lucky to have a copy of it. At least he can read it when he is in Rotterdam. Knowing that he has some islamic reading material makes me feel a lil' relief. I will try to get more of it. I want him to know Allah, to know the prophets and being read with this kinda book and be friended with these kinda characters. He needs to be introduced to the sahabats as well. I will try darling...

I have no idea of what to write. Pen down now! :)