YOU is what I called LIFE

Friends..

Sometimes, they do hurt.
Most of the time, they are like angels.

I sometimes feel being left out, feel trifled, unequally treated..
I most of the time, feel coloured, feel inspired when surrounded by the angels..

I sometimes need space for myself
I most of the time need them more than those empty spaces

I do love you my friends...no matter what you say...

By:Ida@Ogy

From the Wizard of Oz...

I miss you so very badly "not so lil' baby"...

Ammah always sang this song for you when u wanted to sleep

Be good, be brave my lil' dearie

I Love you, forever will be

Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high

There's a land that I heard of Once,

once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds

Are far behind me

Where troubles melt like lemon drops

Away above the chimney tops

that's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow

bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow why then oh why can't I

If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow

why oh why can't I

As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you

Thinking

Can't stop thinking

Think of you

This - That

That Life

That day

That dream was mine

A utopian dream

Dazed - Confused

Without true reality, I there sat

Wondering

The end of my world had only just begun

With yours beginning

Words of wisdom come to my ears

Telling me what I know in my heart

But never wanted to hear

Love hurts

That's what they all say

But I will love again when all this pain and sorrow goes away

So I sit and think of all the things this situation has cost

And I realize that nothing very important has been lost ....

I'm alive again

(Let the rain come down and wash away my tears

Let it fill my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun )

By: Ida@Ogy

Matahariku - My Sunshine

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku - Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu - Kini kau pergi dari hidupku - Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau - Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati - Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi - Tak ada lagi cahaya suci - Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi - Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku - Ku bersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku - Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku - Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu

Melawan Kesepian

Apapun yang terjadi - Berjalanlah tanpa henti - Air mata tertahan - Waktu untuk dijatuhkan - Nanti kita kan tahu - Betapa bijaknya hidup - Sepahit apapun ini - Pelajaran yang berarti - Semoga kepergianmu - Tak akan merubah apapun - Semoga mampu kulawan Kesepianku - Apapun yang terjadi - Berjalanlah tanpa henti...

Ada apa dengan dia

Ada apa dengan dia?

It has been days I wanted to tell about this lady.

Ada apa dengan dia?? Ada sesuatu padanya. Sesuatu yang gembira.

I'm happy to know... she is happy to have it...

Hope Allah make everything easier for her because it isn't easy.

Sirah Junjungan..Tahajud Cinta

Suatu tajuk yang membawa makna yang sangat besar. Kalo nak dikisahkan tentang sirah nabawiyyah, rasanya, inilah sirah yang paling indah pernah kubaca. Sirah ini membawa aku bersama-sama menjiwai dan merasai kehidupan Rasulullah ya Habiballah dr kecil sehingga wafatnya baginda.

Bukan baru kudengari kisah Rasulullah, malah dari zaman kecil sehingga kini. Kehendak Allah dan petunjuk Allah itu tak siapa yang berhak menghalangnya. Masa kecil ku kenali Muhammad kerana dia seorang yang bernama Muhammad, legenda umat Islam. Kisahnya turut disenaraikan dalam silibus pendidikan agama di sekolah, dan kisahnya juga didengarkan dan dibacakan oleh mak di rumah.

Tapi bila dewasa, kukenali Rasulullah kerana dia kekasih Allah. Dialah yang membawa anjakan paradigma pada kehidupan manusia sejagat. Dialah....Indahnya akhlak membuatkan aku jatuh cinta tanpa boleh dihalang2 lagi. Kisahnya sentiasa dibawa dalam setiap kelas yang aku hadiri. Sabda dan sunnahnya sentiasa meniti dibibir para guru2 ku. Rasulullah begitu....Rasulullah begini....Rasulullah tidak melakukan itu....Rasulullah membuatnya begini...Rasulullah kata begitu..Rasulullah kata begini. Gegendang telinga ku hanya didengarkan dgn keindahan peribadi Rasulullah. Lalu jiwa meresapi keindahannya....aku rindu.

Ketika jiwa sarat dengan cinta dan rindu..Erma Fatima memulakan langkah berani mementaskan kisah Muhammad Al-Amin yang aku cintai. Buat pertama kali, kujejaki kaki di Istana Budaya, menonton hasil arahannya.

Dari permulaan pementasan hingga ke penghujungnya, airmataku mengalir tanpa henti. Pementasan bermula dengan kisah Abrahah ingin menawan Mekah dan diakhiri ketika wafatnya Baginda. Rinduku makin menebal. Semakin hangat pementasannya, semakin kuraskaan Rasulullah dekat padaku. Satu persatu pesanan baginda yang pernah singgah ke telingaku, bermain-main dibenak.

Alangkah beruntung para sahabat kerana pernah merasai kehidupan bersamamu. Alangkah beruntung Fatimah kerana berayahkan dirimu. Alangkah beruntungnya Khadijah kerana dicintaimu dan beruntungnya aku kerana dilahirkan sebagai umatmu...Alhamdulillah.

Aku merasakan bahawa perlunya umat Islam di Malaysia ini yang tidak pernah merasakan cinta dan rindu pada Rasulullah dalam diri, agar menonton pementasan ini. Inilah salah satu wadah untuk kalian lebih mengenali pemimpin agung pilihan Allah. Keindahannya, keperitan yang ditanggungnya, seksaan dan hinaan yang dilemparkan padanya utk kita menikmati Islam, tak terbayar oleh kita...

Credit yang tertinggi kuhadiahkan buat erma fatima kerana keberanian, kesungguhan dalam kepayahan utk mementaskan kisah Rasul agung yang sentiasa aku banggakan. Jazakillah...

Possibility

I once loved this song by Intoxicated. It was back then, when I was in school. Not knowing what to do. All I knew was, I wanna sing. I wanna sing like Whitney, like Vanessa Williams, like Mariah Carey. I sang and sang and practised and tried to sing at the best I could. It could only be seen years back. I once, wanted to become a professional singer. Just like them....

Who I was and who I am now doesn't have that much of differences. Still have the same interests. However, who I wanted to be back then and who I have become now, is pretty much different. I learnt that what you are interested in does not kill you. What kills you is, uncontrollable passion of interest. I love who I am now and who is was. Never want to be who I wanted to become..not now...today..and forever.

I thank Allah for the beautiful journey of life I had and gonna have. It's too beautiful.

Now I present....the lyrics of

POSSIBILITY

Everytime I look at you
I wish you looked my way
And flash me that dazzling smile that
really makes my day
But of course it's just a dream
a dream that won't come true
and for unrequited love I wrote this song for you
I always think of how it'd be
if we were together
You and me holding hands
(It's a dream)
I can picture it right now
You and me,
It's a dream,
It's a possibility...
When I look out of my window
I hope you look up at me
If only you could read my heart
My love so true you'd see
How empty my life would be
If I don't have you
And for unrequited love I wrote this song for you...
..it's a dream... it's a Possibility...

Those who ever loves Intoxicated, loves Possibility

Beautiful...

Thursday
After nearly a month....
After such a long wait. It wasn't so long for some people, but it was long enough for a person like me, to feel near again. For some reason, it taught me how precious a person could be, in this beautiful life of mine. So precious...every inch of 'it' resembling the beauty of a friendship, companionship and relationship. It worth the MYR spent for making everything possible.

Friday
Sad news...the phone at the other side refused to help the communication further. More money have to spend, to make every second a momento. Msges were delivered but not replied...but being substituted with calls. The mode was even more interactive and efficient. I have company while driving back home...i have company when i was at home...I like...

Saturday
Long conversation again...life is so beautiful if we could share the moments. It was such a blessings to be given a chance to share especially with the important and loved ones. I fail to express the feeling inside even further. It's too personal to be reached through my words...

Nite
We went out to Allson Klana to have dinner. This is to celebrate mom's 57th birthday. Didn't have much chance to snap more pictures since we were busy video taping dazril's acts.
The food was nice, buffet with grilled seafood and poultry...yummmmm..

Happy Birthday Mak

Heart

Kata Imam Al-Ghazali:

"Carilah hatimu pada tiga tempat. carilah hatimu sewaktu bangun membaca Al-Quran. Jika kau tidak temui, cari hatimu ketika mengerjakan solat. Jika tak kau temui, carilah hatimu ketika duduk tafakur mengingati mati. Jika kau tidak temui juga, maka berdoalah kepada Allah pinta hati yang baru kerana hakikatnya pada ketika itu kau tidak mempunyai hati"

MEMBACA AL-QURAN

Firman Allah:
"Diturunkan kepadamu Al-Quran sebagai petunjuk dan rahmat serta penawar..."
Al-Isra' 17:82

MENDIRIKAN SOLAT

"Jika kamu ingin Allah bercakap denganmu, bacalah Al-Quran kerana Al-Quran ialah ayat-ayat Allah yang ditujukan kepadamu. Tetapi jika kamu pula ingin bercakap dengan Allah, maka dirikanlah solat kerana solat hakikatnya ialah doa, pengaduan, pujian dan rintihan seorang hamba kepada Allah"

MENGINGATI MATI

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w:
"Orang yang paling cerdik iaitu mereka yang banyak mengingati mati."

Riwayat al-Baihaqi

What I Believe

I have two days to relax...free my mind. I need to think, think hard on what i should do in my life...

I once heard ppl said, "orang yang merancang adalah orang yg kecewa kerana Allah telah membuat perancangan utk kita", but i also heard one said "gagal utk merancang adalah merancang utk gagal". But at the back of my mind, i think i understand what they are trying to tell me.

I believe that we need to sketch out what we want to achieve and work for it, but let Allah decides what is the outcome. Whatever the results may, that's the best for us. Always believe that Allah always has something better instore for us when the right time has come.

Unreachable

Yesterday was the last day of communication. Last msg was at 11:39AM saying goodbye. The communication was not like before.

Before:

• was there almost all the time


• always offer a shoulder to cry on


• teasing around


• weekend visit

Present:

• communicate during weekend


• not much of time spend to talk


• bz with things to do list


• no more offering a shoulder due to tight schedule

Since all these obstacles are presents, so i'm lucky to be gifted with such a life, like no other. With patience and prayers, with the love from Allah, things will definitely be better

Nothing much

It's CNY break and we do not have any plans. We were suppose to go to Malacca on last Saturday since mak feels so bored staying at home. Unfortunately 'twas cancelled since adik was not in the pink of health. She doesn't feel like going out at all.

Till this morning, it has been 2 solid days that i haven't made a presence to the outside world. Staying inside, not even pampering my garden and my pond. This morning, i have found my courage to get some fresh flowers from the market for the empty vase . I know that nobody will get it filled with the fresh smell of chrysanthemum.

Dazril came back at 9.30PM last nite. After the playing, tossing and turning, he finally cried. That's a good sign to show that he is tired and need some sleep. I'm tired too darling.

I remembered my visit to the islamic economy development exhibition last thursday. Managed to get a set of stories of the prophets for Dazril. Such books are rarely found in the market anymore. Dazril is lucky to have a copy of it. At least he can read it when he is in Rotterdam. Knowing that he has some islamic reading material makes me feel a lil' relief. I will try to get more of it. I want him to know Allah, to know the prophets and being read with this kinda book and be friended with these kinda characters. He needs to be introduced to the sahabats as well. I will try darling...

I have no idea of what to write. Pen down now! :)

What about Fraser's Hill

After the cancellation of the 1st plan to Fraser's Hill back in Dec, we finally succeeded in making the 2nd plan possible. We stayed in Silverpark. Comfortable but spooky since it's quite desserted. Only few cars can be seen at each block of the apartment which i think, comprises of not more than two families. Happened to be that Petronas owned 3 apt units at Silverpark, so big bro rent it for the weekend. If not, i may have to rent a unit at TM Sri Intan.

The Silverpark

We wound our way up the mountain along narrow roads with steep drops. There was much screeching of brakes and lurching forward but we survived. We reached the gap at 1 pm. Our timing was efficient. The gap is open for 40 minutes every odd hour for us to drive up and close at every even hour for people to go down the hill. We were immediately struck by how cool it was in the highlands especially when the wind blows. Spending two days up in the hill was really breathtaking but not to forget eerie as well. I sometimes feel uncomfortable and uneasy which caused "insomnia"....hahaha...

The scenery shots

We went sightseeing on Sat evening to see the colonial-styled bungalows available in town. They are so like the brits'. Went to the waterfall, but it was such a neverending track of walking to get to see the water falling (hehe)... Since we are "not so fit" ppl except abah, so we decided to stop halfway. Leaving mak, kakdiana n dazril alone in the car in this sechulded forest was one of the reasons why we opted to stop halfway through the track.

Continue the venture around the hill to the main attraction of this chilled windy mountain, which is the clock.

Evening walk

Had our dinner at the one of the stalls near the smokehouse. It was cheap, tasty and variety of food available for serving. We had mee bandung, yong tau foo, hotplate chicken rice, fried kueytiau, waffle.

Glen bungalow - Ye Olde Smokehouse - Jeriau Waterfall

We had our breakfast at the same stall the next day. The nasi lemak ayam goreng was tasty and the chilli paste was really fantastic. Never thot that we could find such fine food up there with such price.

Before driving down the hill, we stopped at Ye Olde Smokehouse to have our tea. They serve very fine scone and it's far better than the coffee bean. We sat in the garden on white metal furniture eating, would you believe, scones with homemade strawberry conserve and cream anf butter and a pot of tea!! (but i had hot choc, only big bro who had tea)

Safely reached home at 7:50PM...end of story :)

Traffic & People

Driving to work every morning is usually a pleasure to me. Unluckily, this morning was not as beautiful as the normal days.

A Malay guy being a braggart, egotist to a lady driver like me. Overtaking my turn recklessly and causing me close to an accident. I'm sad to know that a Malay, who normally a Muslim, being so rude on the road. What is it with showing PRIDE? What's there to show if u don't have any. Is that what u call "YOUR PRIDE"? I would say 'twas just an EGO you were showing. Losing your pride when someone "WON" in taking turn during traffic jam? Is that what pride is all about to u? People! it's when u wife lying naked in front of public that u should be shamed about. World would be a better place if everyone knows how to give rather than knowing how to steal.

Funny uncle driving a van without brake and signal lights...you can be the reason for an accident uncle. it's not safe at all to everyone on the road. Perhaps causing a lost of life.

A driver jumped in the queue. It's other ppl's turn darling. More of them await at the back.

Enuff for today...

The SUN is shining

Messages are finally delivered
Communication becomes possible
Replies received
Another reason to be happy in life...
Because the sun is finally smiling with its big grin
isn't it great?

Today is the day

Today is the day it starts...
with full moon and twinkling stars...
Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akhbar!