I guess I didn't

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How would I go on?
I feel hurt. I had let go...
I thot I did. But I guess I didn't.
Dear God, help me for what I feel.

After years had gone by, I thot I would be able to face it...
After years of sorrow, I thot I'm healed...
After years of silence I thot it's all gone...
After years of distance I thot I have made it thru....
But I guess I didnt.

If I am happy when I am around him, why am I crying?
If he could kill the sadness, why am I hurt?
If he is the honey sugar, why would I still feel the bitterness?
I guess he is still the honeybee who stung my heart with poison...
And left the scar forever.

Dear God, I beg, show me some light so I would be happy again.
Please God, don't let him tear me apart...
Love me God, for only Your love can make me strong
I need You God and ONLY You.

Dengarlah matahariku,
suara tangisanku, ku bersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku....